So, for several
days weeks, I’ve been sick. I’ve been sick through my anniversary, a couple of my children’s surgeries and procedures, and now it looks like, going into yet another surgery with my daughter- I’m still sick. Hospitals don’t really appreciate sick parents coming in. I get that. I know I sound congested and sometimes I look like I’m going to throw up. Really I do. I will wear the mask if it makes you feel better, but when you have been sick for this long, you can’t just stay home all day every day. Especially when your child is having surgery. “Sorry dear, Mommy can’t come. She has a stuffy nose.”
Because of this, every evening, I’ve been asking God to help me feel miraculously better when I wake up. You know, wake up symptom free and all that jazz. I also hoped to feel so great that I’d be ready to jump out of bed early and go read my Bible. I prefer to do my study in the morning, but recently I’ve been feeling so worn down I’ve just slept until the very last second possible.
So, this morning God answered half my prayer. I woke up at 4:30am with a cough, and I couldn’t go back to sleep. To avoid disturbing others with my hacking, I left the bedroom, crept down the hall, and settled into the living room. Where I did my Bible study. And read a little of the book, Heaven, by Randy Alcorn. And folded laundry. And took care of some Signposts Ministries stuff. And am writing a post for the blog this very minute.
What happened here? Well, I didn’t get any physical healing last night, but I did get some spiritual healing. I’ve had a nice time with God this morning. I’m guessing I may be feeling a physical backlash from this after lunch today. However, I’m thinking that God did answer my prayer with what was truly important.
Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make straight your paths.
Be not wise in your own eyes;
fear the LORD, and turn away from evil.
It will be healing to your flesh
and refreshment to your bones. – Proverbs 3:5-8